Capri was born Monday April, 25th and passed away later than same evening. Her life was short but so sweet. I never have been part of a baby’s final moments before. I am always the last one to arrive. The final documentation that there was a child before the book is closed and the family starts the long process of grieving and healing. Two days ago, I went to the hospital to serve a friend and that evening I came home with a precious gift from her.
That whole day I marveled at the strength and deep understanding this tiny baby’s parents had of life. Mom and Dad held her for every moment she fought to live. There was no rest. Mom had just undergone several blood transfusions, an emergency C Section and still, though heavy lidded from the effects of fatigue and drugs, fought to stay awake and hold her daughter. When tears and grief would have been expected and appropriate, her family chose to celebrate every move of her hands, every laboured breath. Every eye was on her. The hairs on her head were caressed, her hands were held, her tiny back was cradled. And she fought. For hours her oxygen levels and heart rate held steady and even increased with the tender loving attention from her parents. I took 365 pictures of Capri’s one solitary day. 365 pictures to document a life that will be an influence to me for the rest of my life.
As I came home from the hospital after a tender good bye, I was deep in thought. I was driving through Tacoma when I rounded a corner to see one of the largest rainbows I have ever seen gracing the port. It was beautiful. I knew that God had sent a rainbow. A colorful embrace for all of those that grieved that day. I cried all the pent up tears all the way home. I cried for a life cut short, I cried for a family that would go home without a daughter, I cried for all the years I had wasted without the realization of how fleeting and treasured life is and should be, I cried to return to my children…to recommit to them to cherish every moment, I cried thinking about the value the photographs I had just taken would have for my friend.
Dear sweet Capri, thank you for coming to this Earth to teach me to love more, to cherish each moment, to be more present in my children’s lives and to hold tight to every moment.